The past few nights have been spent staying up and looking at options of places to move for residency. Now, the whole ordeal is just a terrifying process, but in the spirit of wanting to be as prepared as possible, we're going through every single option (so many) and seeing what we like or don't like about it.
As someone who loves well laid plans, I find it hard to look at the unknown with any sort of positive feelings. Be terrified, yes. Dread it, easily. But think of it fondly and maybe even love it? Not so much.
Looking at all these cities though, I realize there are so many places that are still unknown to me. Looking at cities I've never heard of, I'm wondering what it would be like to fall in love with these places.
It's making me think, so many of the best things in my life were unknown at some point. Moving from Tennessee to Florida my freshman year of high school felt like it was going to be the end of my life, but it was the very best thing. If I'd never moved here, I would have missed out on so many incredible things, but most of all, I never would have met Christopher. I wouldn't have a little family on the way.
I was terrified of going to college because it was unknown, but those years were amazing. I met my best friend, fell in love with books and writing, and got to experience wonderful things.
Getting married was a huge unknown, but it's been the biggest adventure of my life.
I don't know this little babe yet--in fact, everything surrounding having a baby is incredibly unknown to me--but I know I will love him so much.
So today, I'm learning to love the unknown. Because the very best things in my life were unknown at one point.
The future is scary. Looking at all of these places and trying to imagine having a life there is just downright terrifying. But, it's exciting too. Because I know wherever we end up, it will be a journey full of adventure. Of course it's unknown--but that just means I don't yet know all the wonderful things that will happen. And I know that in a few years, I'll look back and be so happy that we stepped out into the unknown.
Little by little, I'm beginning to fall in love with the idea of the unknown.
