just write: new year's thoughts.

think of last year of all it brought you.  the people you didn't know the year before who you can't survive without now.  the nights you got to dance through & the laughter you got to share & the places you went & the lips you kissed & the hope you felt & the things you saw  all in the span of one year.  it was hard, maybe but it was good and full  and it shaped you.  remember that, when this year gets hard (as it almost certainly will): that while it may be hard it is also full & giving & shaping.  always shaping. 

it's not too late to start over  the second, the seventh, the twelfth of next month all perfectly good days to start fresh.  but please don't feel like you have to.  start over, that is.  you are good, here, now. just as you are. 

you don't have to let go  if you are not ready.  a page turning, a clock ticking, a calendar flipping none of it means you have to let go.  it's okay that you still need to work through that thing & it's okay that you can't stop thinking about them &  it's okay that you're not ready to say, "it's okay" quite yet.  all of these things are a part of you of you, just as you are, right now. & you don't have to let go of any piece of yourself  unless you are ready. 

it really is amazing, when you think about it.  the fact that you woke up today.  all of the things last year that could have killed you  but didn't  all of the ways the world could have broken you  but didn't  all of the times you could have given up  but didn't.  it really is amazing  so allow yourself to be amazed.  you did it.