Learning to Love the Unknown.

The past few nights have been spent staying up and looking at options of places to move for residency. Now, the whole ordeal is just a terrifying process, but in the spirit of wanting to be as prepared as possible, we're going through every single option (so many) and seeing what we like or don't like about it.

As someone who loves well laid plans, I find it hard to look at the unknown with any sort of positive feelings. Be terrified, yes. Dread it, easily. But think of it fondly and maybe even love it? Not so much.

Looking at all these cities though, I realize there are so many places that are still unknown to me. Looking at cities I've never heard of, I'm wondering what it would be like to fall in love with these places.

It's making me think, so many of the best things in my life were unknown at some point. Moving from Tennessee to Florida my freshman year of high school felt like it was going to be the end of my life, but it was the very best thing. If I'd never moved here, I would have missed out on so many incredible things, but most of all, I never would have met Christopher. I wouldn't have a little family on the way.

I was terrified of going to college because it was unknown, but those years were amazing. I met my best friend, fell in love with books and writing, and got to experience wonderful things.

Getting married was a huge unknown, but it's been the biggest adventure of my life.

I don't know this little babe yet--in fact, everything surrounding having a baby is incredibly unknown to me--but I know I will love him so much.

So today, I'm learning to love the unknown. Because the very best things in my life were unknown at one point.

The future is scary. Looking at all of these places and trying to imagine having a life there is just downright terrifying. But, it's exciting too. Because I know wherever we end up, it will be a journey full of adventure. Of course it's unknown--but that just means I don't yet know all the wonderful things that will happen. And I know that in a few years, I'll look back and be so happy that we stepped out into the unknown.

Little by little, I'm beginning to fall in love with the idea of the unknown.

Embrace the Adventure.

Thank you so much for all of your sweet words and congratulations on Monday's post. You guys are really just the best. It makes it so much better and more real to have so many people to celebrate this new step with!

Now, I'm a planner at heart. I like to know as many details as possible before new things happen. Neither one of those things meshes with life at the moment. I have so. many. questions. 

Like, how are we going to fit an entire extra human into our tiny shoebox of an apartment? Because we resigned the lease two days before we knew about little. 

What exactly will the next few years look like? No clue!

Where is Chris going to work? Not the slightest idea. 

Where are we going to live? Haha, such a funny question.

I've heard the expression "I know God is laughing at me!" And while I don't really like to think of God laughing at me, I can't help but think he's at least chuckling a little bit up there.

And the thing is, in this time of just total unknowing, I'm learning so much and nothing all at the same time.

I'm learning that it's okay to feel like you know nothing. It's okay to not know. 

I love planning. It would be really nice to be able to sit down with a planner and pencil in the answers to all of the questions I have, but not being able to do that doesn't stop life from happening.

It would be really nice to know what city we will live in next, but I don't even know what state will be home, and that doesn't mean we're not going to have a home that we love next summer.

Just because having a baby wasn't the plan and I'm not really sure how it's all going to work out doesn't mean that it's not going to be the most exciting, wonderful change.

Just because life is changing and happening without my permission or even knowledge doesn't mean life is any less good. It just means it's an adventure.

So I'm just over here learning that it's okay to not know. And that when you don't know, the best thing you can do is embrace the adventure.

Cheers to embracing the adventure. Because I have a feeling it's going to be better than I could have even imagined.